Frozen Versions... 🤫

 Wow, 

I don't even know where to start,

I'm filled with emotions, sentiments unresolved, statements unending

Pins eating me from within so bad, straight up consuming

People marching my steps near perfection, unrealistic guidelines, one highline for a man like me

Sucks to be stuck in time forever

Desperately seeking a  feature to hover between the present and the past to make it better. No demigod  I am , not genie in sight.

Versions of me frozen in time, memories, locked hard and upright Daggers from "ifs" scythe from "hows?" the" whats? " and the" whys?" 

Struggling up in my head spinning hard, with the things I feared, 

All because I want to relive it one more time cos, they've all disappeared. 

You'll never walk alone, 

You'll never walk alone, 

A message from my numerous friends, 

Now, tossed deep in silence, isolated, left on my own. 

Ha.... 

Fleeting life, failing trust. 

It happens so fast, it dazzles and stuns, wears of and stings

Swell, must have been scripted from the beginning, I should have known. Nothing stays forever.. 

You thought It a lie, oh you poor thing 

Heavy pressures on your shoulder, calluses on your mind.

Heats in my heart, many a persons I live

Layers upon layers, my layers have lairs on

I want some little peace 

That's all I seek, 

Not this scalding breaths and the nasty sweats, the world on my shoulders 

Living imperfections, world so perfect, held a captive in a crystal jail. 

Ha.... 

You remember too much... 

Why hold on to all that? 

But wait, this wasn't supposed be a rant,

I mean I've seen worst, yet to experience the best. Perhaps that's one of those mini myths

These bunkers are archives of the good,old days

And these tears, they mean happiness instead.

Im sad that it ended but I'm happy that it happened